(24th) Day of Summer

You make everything glorious

I was THIS  close to not going into work today. You see, in the morning when I was in the bathroom, I almost passed out. What the cause was, I’m still not entirely sure. All I know was that when I was about to brush my teeth, my hearing started to get muffled and a white glow began to cover my vision. I remember dropping my glasses into the sink, but I couldn’t find it because I felt myself nodding and swaying away. Next thing you know, I was reaching for the doornob to get back into my bed, except as I was trying to find the nob, my head kept hitting the door. It was all very vague and frightening. So I laid in bed for an extra hour, and contemplated on not going to work. In the end, I decided I would go, because for the past week, the 3rd guy who helps us make snacks hasn’t showed up, and I wasn’t about to leave the last poor fellow alone to make snacks (and drinks) for 180 kids on his own.

When I got to work, Teacher Kenny didn’t show up, so I was called on to do an impromptu worship session. If I had my way, I would’ve just politely said no, because I was honestly going through the day still a little light-headed. But for whatever reason I decided that it was a good idea, and I borrowed a friend’s guitar to play “Here I Am to Worship” for the next 15 minutes. Throughout the day, I just tried to apply what I had learned recently and be one of the kids. Possibly also affected by what happened in the morning, I really wasn’t in the mood to yell at kids today. During Mandarin class, we watched a video and I got some nice down-time to rest then. I don’t know if it’s just me, but lately I started to feel the kids open up more to me. To them, I’m still going to be the yelling teacher; but now I’m also seen as their friend. As I went around the room to interact with the children, I started to see myself as one of them.

Now as I sit here typing this, my head still feels just a tiny bit off. But now I realize how much I could’ve missed if I hadn’t showed up to work today. God works in funny ways; it doesn’t matter what life throws at you, He will always manage to help you bear good fruits.

Published by samanthamelodyu

Born in LA, grew up in Taichung, but currently loving and residing in NYC and the East coast. US born immigrant "Sometimes I can feel my bones straining under the weight of all the lives I'm not living."

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