When I can’t feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same

When I can’t hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray

And I want you more than I want to live another day

And as I wait for you, maybe I’m made more faithful

If I was being honest with myself, I have not had the best year spiritually. There have definitely been highlights and wonderful moments, but I haven’t actually sat down and read my Bible for the entire year, nor have I really prayed. I feel like this whole year I’ve been treating God like some kind of a magical genie, it’s only when I feel my head spinning from the weight of the world that I pray a desperate prayer. Then the next day it’s like nothing ever happened. I know what is required of me but there is just no motivation to strive for it; it’s like I am willingly letting myself stray and wander. Yet while I am feeling adrift from all that I know is good, I am still learning to keep the faith in my own ways.

Only He can bring me back to where He is