Love is here

Our church softball team did pretty well considering. 1-1-1 record as opposed to last year’s 0-3. I’m proud of how far we’ve come, but at the same time there’s a lot more that could’ve gone differently if we just gave it a little bit more “umph”. Overall it was a good day, although I would’ve rather had the day to rest my body. I saw some people I haven’t seen in a long time (mostly ALLISON LOW, and Kim’s family) so that was nice. There was an awkward moment when I first saw a friend of mine when he waved at me. I didn’t recognize him at first because:

A) Usually when I meet new people at events like these I don’t see them again for a really long time, so it usually takes some time to register in my head.

B) I was kind of having a brain fart moment and just spaced out

C) the last time I saw Andrew Hong, he had shorter hair. So it did took me some time to recognize him

Afterwards I felt bad but I guess everyone has these moments. I heard church is pretty decked out for VBC and I’m excited to see the decorations. To be completely honest, I’m not entirely sure I am ready to do this. I feel like because work just ended this Friday, that I haven’t had enough time to prepare myself for another week of what seems like work. All I have enough time for is just to take a deep breath and to keep praying. At this point I have relied on almost nothing but the power of prayer to pull me through. I really haven’t prayed deeply in a long time though. Even though I keep telling myself that I will build the habit, I always find myself talking to God late in the night when I’m lying awake on my bed trying to fall asleep. I feel like half the time, knowing that I have relinquished control over things is enough to let that slip by. Right now I just want to adjust one thing at a time, eventually I’ll get there, but working on multiple things at once has always failed to prevail. That might not be entirely true, but for the most part it is.

One at a time Sam, you’re almost there.