After work today, a bunch of EM people went to a batting cage in Five Towns to get some last batting practice in before the Running Roots Tournament on Saturday. I haven’t been to a batting cage in such a long time, and I went into the fast-pitch cage. I guess it’s also faster than I’m used to, but I couldn’t even touch the ball for the first two rounds. I think playing arc-slow pitch is kind of messing me up, and batting was already one of my weakest points. I hope Brown doesn’t yell at me when my batting hasn’t really improved much. Afterwards, we went to Daniel Chen’s place to chill. I really love the layout of their first floor, and I love the artistic feel of the whole house; Abigail is a really lucky girl. I want to paint on my walls.
Tomorrow is the big day! I will be getting my last paycheck, and I will bid good-bye to the kids. I think it will be a bittersweet moment, but it will be a lot more sweet. God has really been using this whole experience to teach and challenge me. I’m not as freaked out by children as I used to be, as much as I still despise some of them, I’m slowly starting to see why God told us to be like children. Sometimes I really regret the fact that I wasn’t able to take advantage of my time with Albert & Justin last year. I wonder how they’re doing now, but a part of me really wants to rewrite that part of my life. Monday morning I really just wanted to push through this one last week. Now I’m finally standing face to face with the last day of work. Next week’s VBC will probably be done in the blink of an eye. Summer is really ending, and there’s still so much that I haven’t done yet. I really regret not being able to spend time prepping myself for college. I feel like this whole experience for me has really just been a mess. I make hasty decisions in terms of studying and applying for things. While I was talking to Alice Lee today, I mentioned that the initial desire to go to school in LA is dying down a lot. Partially because I know that I won’t be able to get a lot of stuff in time for that, and also I figured I can just go there after school is over. At this point, this “need to go back” feeling is probably just there because everyone else is heading West. I think once I’ve went and come back, the urge wouldn’t be as strong anymore.
There’s still a lot that needs to be reorganized up in my brain. I think I need another good week or two worth of break to really do that. In hindsight, what the heck did I spend this summer on?