I’ve been working at a new job in a new position for a couple of months now, and while I know I am qualified and confident in my ability to do the job, sometimes I still have a sneaking suspicion that one day I will make a mistake so big that it will require a great cost of me. While that has still yet to … Continue reading Shame
On Monday my dad (what I thought) spontaneously messaged the family group chat and asked if we could have a family dinner. Initially I thought, “Awwww, that’s cute, dad wants to have a family dinner,” but I completely neglected to read the chunk of message before stating the occasion it was for, which was to celebrate our family’s 16th anniversary since moving to New York. … Continue reading Year 16
Contrary to what Taylor Swift tells me how to feel, Saturday came and went just like any other day. The only difference is, this time I am right back at the heart of the very city I took my first breath in, also it was a sunny 80 degrees in the middle of January and I spent it on the beaches of Santa Monica. At … Continue reading 22
Savior, please take my hand I work so hard, I live so fast This life begins, and then it ends And I do the best that I can, but I don’t know how long I’ll last I try to be so tough but I’m just not strong enough I can’t do this alone, God I need You to hold on to me I try to … Continue reading Savior, Please
Ever since I came home I have been discovering the heartaches and ridiculousness that we as humans all cause upon one another. For months I’ve been asking one question only, “How the f**k did we get here?” I know there is a problem somewhere, an inability to communicate peacefully, the inability to see eye to eye. I know there is a problem, I just don’t … Continue reading The Very Unrealistic Expectation
Sunny’s Sermon Sunny’s Sermon 2 Set a Fire Note: Original post written 4/26/2012 Contrary to popular beliefs (by whom, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just generalizing), I actually do struggle from time to time with self-worth. I know my identity is in Christ, and that it should be enough. But there are days when I go to the gym and feel like a weakling; mornings … Continue reading Confessions
I am beginning to realize the darkness of the road that now faces me. I know I asked God to break me again this year, and well, I’m not sure what else I was expecting. When it comes to hard topics, such as regarding my family, I get extra sensitive. It’s not a topic I talk about openly, but I am finding ways now to … Continue reading At the end of the tunnel looking in
Family: you can’t live with them, have LIVED without them. I wanted this trip to be nostalgic; I wanted to do the things I did when I was younger, but I did not mean to have to endure this again. I didn’t want to have to tear up in their faces either, but when no human being is willing to listen, the only thing I … Continue reading It’s all in the family
Samantha M. Yu 