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Prove Me Wrong

My deepest and most painful wounds have all been a result of church ministries. For a better part of my life I have felt the emotional and mental torture and anger brought about by ministries and towards ministries. And honestly most of the time even towards God. About his sadistic ways of calling us to doContinueContinue reading “Prove Me Wrong”

Far

When I can’t feel you, I have learned to reach out just the same When I can’t hear you, I know you still hear every word I pray And I want you more than I want to live another day And as I wait for you, maybe I’m made more faithful If I was beingContinueContinue reading “Far”

Where I Belong

If you asked me 5 years ago, I would say that I have always thought that I was going to stick it through in NYC for the rest of my life. Sometimes I really don’t know anymore. Having lived away from the city for a while, I have come to see how vile and poisonousContinueContinue reading “Where I Belong”

Hope is Alive

Sometimes I am asked why and how I’m so positive all the time. Between the amount of pep talks I give myself and how I handle losses and failures, I always think about and prepare for the worse, but I leave no room to take “no” for an answer. Part of me is amused byContinueContinue reading “Hope is Alive”

Savior, Please

Savior, please take my hand I work so hard, I live so fast This life begins, and then it ends And I do the best that I can, but I don’t know how long I’ll last I try to be so tough but I’m just not strong enough I can’t do this alone, God IContinueContinue reading “Savior, Please”

Write Characters, not stories

As a result of watching a lot of USAnetwork television, I have constantly heard their motto play, “Characters Welcomed.” Initially I felt like it was nothing more than a fitting description and motto that they’re committed to; each of the shows on the network is driven by compelling characters. But soon I began to realizeContinueContinue reading “Write Characters, not stories”

The Very Unrealistic Expectation

Ever since I came home I have been discovering the heartaches and ridiculousness that we as humans all cause upon one another. For months I’ve been asking one question only, “How the f**k did we get here?” I know there is a problem somewhere, an inability to communicate peacefully, the inability to see eye toContinueContinue reading “The Very Unrealistic Expectation”

Confessions

Sunny’s Sermon Sunny’s Sermon 2 Set a Fire Note: Original post written 4/26/2012 Contrary to popular beliefs (by whom, I don’t know. Maybe I’m just generalizing), I actually do struggle from time to time with self-worth. I know my identity is in Christ, and that it should be enough. But there are days when IContinueContinue reading “Confessions”

At the end of the tunnel looking in

I am beginning to realize the darkness of the road that now faces me. I know I asked God to break me again this year, and well, I’m not sure what else I was expecting. When it comes to hard topics, such as regarding my family, I get extra sensitive. It’s not a topic IContinueContinue reading “At the end of the tunnel looking in”

The Art of Letting Go

This is my 100th post! I wrote an entry on my birthday on Tumblr sort of reflecting on my trip to Taiwan this past winter break. It was a long-overdue trip I wanted to make for myself, and I think in a very intimate way, it was a trip that I really needed to make.ContinueContinue reading “The Art of Letting Go”